So now that I’m planning my wedding I have a bit more motivation to lose some of this extra weight that I’ve been carrying around for the past decade. I’ve struggled with my weight for most of my life. At age 12 I went on my first diet and failed. Through most of my teenage years I was about 15 lbs overweight, not too bad really but once I graduated and started college I put on about 5 lbs a year. I want to say my weight was about 150 lbs at age 18 and by the time I was 25 I weighed 183 lbs.

I started dating Lawrence at age 25 and he was pretty into fitness, he got me back in the gym and we put together a diet for me to follow and I also had a food journal to keep track of everything I shoved into my pie-hole. This was very eye opening for me to keep track of the calories and fat in everything that I was eating, I couldn’t believe it. After about 9 months I had lost 20 lbs, I was down to 163 lbs and I was feeling pretty good. I would’ve liked to lose another 15 lbs to put me back to at least my High School weight but I was a size 10 and had some nice muscle definition in my arms and legs, not so much in the belly region though I’m afraid.

About a year after I lost the 20 lbs Lawrence broke up with me for another girl. We had been living together so I had to move out and start over. During that first month of being on my own and trying to pick up the pieces I lost another 5 lbs. 157 was the lowest number I’d seen on a scale in almost 10 years! However, the more settled I got in my new single life again I started going to the gym less and less and going out with friends for drinks and eating out 3-4 nights a week. It took about 3 years; but the lbs started creeping back up on the scale. My friends told me it’s because I’m happy that I’ve gained the weight. Which I guess to a certain extent it is true; however what my friends don’t know is that I’ve also been harboring an eating disorder for the past 10 years.

Two and half years ago I met the love of my life. It was truly love at first site. We met through an on-line dating service and we clicked right from the start. When we met I weighed 172 lbs 12 moths later I’m back at my heaviest weight of 184 lbs. He’s about 30 lbs overweight as well. Ever since we met we’ve talked about wanting to lose weight and making a better effort to get to the gym more often. So far this hasn’t come to fruition. I’ve made some effort; I work out 2-4 times a week. But when it comes to food, I haven’t made many adjustments to what goes down my gullet.

One month ago I went to the Doctor for my annual physical and she told me that my blood pressure was a little high 130/80, which is borderline for a woman in her early 30’s. She told me to start watching my caffeine and sodium intake and to make sure that I’m exercising at least 3 times a week for 30 minutes. I then went down the hall to have some blood drawn to run all the standard tests. The results came in the mail about a week later to reveal much to my surprise that I also have slightly high cholesterol. Folks, this is NOT GOOD! It finally hit me that I need to change my eating habits and issues that I have with food. My carelessness and overindulgences has started to catch up with me and is affecting my overall health.

I want to make myself accountable for what goes into my body and track how much exercise I’m getting. I started this Blog over 6 months ago and never got past my first entry. Now I have something to track and maybe people will even read these entries and comment and give me some words of encouragement and maybe a little advice.

 So here’s the Goal:

#1) Exercise 5 times a week. Burn at least 500 calories each workout.

#2) Keep a Food Journal (I hate this but it worked for me last time)

#3) Monday – Friday keep my calorie intake to a maximum of 1,800 per day ( weekends I can splurge a bit)

#4) Cut back on my alcohol intake. (No alcohol on nights during the week Mon – Thurs, NO Beer, if I drink a cocktail on the weekends it must be low in sugar NO Margaritas!!!)

#5) NO Fast food only allowed to eat out 2 times a week. Prepare all other meals from scratch at home, NO frozen meals!

#6) Lose 30 lbs by April 17th 2010.

I feel that this is a reasonable place to start. I don’t want to restrict myself too much in the beginning; I need this plan to be “do-able”. Once I get into these habits and I see some results I will make some modifications. My plan is to post every Monday my progress for the past week. How many workouts I got in, if I stuck to my calorie limits and what my downfalls if any were for the week.

Now, I just need to get the Boyfriend on board with this as well so it will be easier to stick with it. I need to get his butt to the gym!

So starting stats are 34 years old, 5′-5″ average build 183 lbs

I have been a Blog reader for about 5 years and have toyed with the idea of starting my own Blog for awhile but was never quite sure what I wanted to Blog about. Some Blogs are so B-O-R-I-N-G, when all the person does is document their everyday mundane routine. My favorite blogs are about peoples personal growth, life experiences and exceptional story tellers. My life is a series of Ups and Downs, Happiness, Sadness, Joy, Depression, Excitement, Disappointment, Frustration and Relief. I could go on of course with descriptive words but I think you get the point. My intentions for my Blog is to be a combination of personal growth, life experiences and story telling as well as a personal journal for myself to reflect back on as I go through life. I’m interested to see how many readers I will acquire and how many comments I’ll receive. I do welcome them so comment away.

 A little about me and topics you can expect me to Blog about:

I’m in my mid 30’s and live in Southern California, I’m recently engaged to the man of my dreams, I have a job that I enjoy where I have worked for over 8 years, I am a lover of wine, food, nature, animals, physical activity, Crime Dramas, Comedies, music (specifically DMB) and affection.

So that’s me, in a nutshell. Welcome to A Bitter Sweet Life and I hope you enjoy the ride.